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He Tripped on DMT 200 Times. Here’s What He Saw | Tyler's Story

Tyler is a project manager who calls himself left brain and type A, had no spiritual interest of any kind two years ago, and has now taken DMT more than two hundred times. The interesting part of his account is not the breakthrough trips, which he says are chaos you bring almost nothing back from, but what happened after a frightening experience made him cut the dose to ten or twelve milligrams and leave his eyes open: a semi translucent mechanical framework that appears in the room, will not distort when he stares at it, and has now come back roughly a hundred sessions in a row. He went looking for anyone else reporting it and found Danny Goler, the DMT laser experiment researcher, describing it almost word for word in an interview recorded two days earlier. The back half of the hour leaves substances entirely for his first out of body experience, which he tried to falsify by memorizing where his two dogs were sleeping before returning to his body to check.

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At a glance

Tyler is a project manager. He describes himself as left brain, type A, not a spiritual person, not a psychedelics person, someone who does not like the Grateful Dead and who two years ago would have watched this exact interview and thought "this guy is hallucinating." Then he took DMT, and over roughly eighteen months he has taken it more than two hundred times. On The Paradigm Experience he sits down to describe, in careful order, what happened.

The interview has a spine, and it is not the wild breakthrough trips. Those, Tyler says, are chaos you cannot bring anything back from. The spine is what happened when he got scared by one bad experience, cut his dose down to ten or twelve milligrams, and left his eyes open. A semi translucent framework appeared in the space in front of his desk, mechanical, in motion, and it did not distort when he stared at it. It came back the next night. It has now come back roughly a hundred times in a row. When he went looking for anybody else describing the same thing he found Danny Goler, the researcher behind the DMT laser experiment, saying it almost word for word in an interview recorded two days earlier, and through Goler's partner he found a small group of high count users who all report the same graduated arc. Two months before this recording the framework resolved into something Tyler called an interface. The partner did not let him finish the description. He said: that is the console.

The back half of the episode leaves drugs entirely. The host pushes Tyler toward the Monroe Institute, and Tyler tells the story of his first out of body experience three months earlier, which happened by accident on a morning off, terrified him, and which he had the presence of mind to try to falsify by walking into his own living room and memorizing the sleeping positions of his two small dogs before returning to his body to check.

This page rebuilds the whole conversation in the order it happened, with the specifics kept: the dose numbers, the trip counts, the hyper slap at thirty percent processing power, the host's own bad night in college, the advice both men land on, and the dogs. What is established, what is speculation, and what the pair themselves flag as speculation are all here in their own words. An honest look at where any of this stands sits at the end of the page, where it belongs.

Chapters

Timestamps are clickable. Click one and the player jumps there and keeps playing while you read. These are the video's own eighteen chapter titles, verbatim.

The cold open: "I promise I am just a regular dude"

The episode front loads its own punchline. Before a word of the interview proper, the video cuts a montage of the lines it is building toward, and they are all Tyler's.

"Dude, I know this sounds crazy, and I promise I am just a regular, a regular dude. I called it an interface when I was describing it." Then the reply he got from the researcher he had sent it to: "he was like instantly like, oh, that's the console. That's the console. You're experiencing the console."

Then the shape of the thing: "It almost, it looks like a screen go like, like folds up and then out." Then the part that matters most and that the rest of the hour circles: "There's like four or five other people. They get presented with the console every single time now, too. It's like clockwork."

The host's question cuts in over the top of it, and it is the question the whole episode is really about. Not what is it. What does it mean. "Beyond just like what you think it is, what do you think it means on a broader sense?" Tyler's answer, previewed here and unpacked at 38:00: "this is a learning experience. This wanting, it's like a, it's trying to teach or show us something. Is this the control board for this game? Or this, the reality is we're experiencing it right now, is it some type of technology?"

Then the disclaimer he keeps returning to, unprompted, all hour: "Two years ago, I would have been one of those people that are like, this is crazy. This guy is hallucinating. This is your brain on drugs."

And finally a snatch of the story that closes the episode, which has nothing to do with drugs at all: "I'm having all the thoughts of like, oh my god, like I'm out. I'm out. What if I can't get back? You know, what if I can't go back to my body? I saw Duke and Zoe. I'm like, oh my god. Oh my god." The host, off camera: "Dude, that's it, that's impressive, like for your first one to be able to walk around, that's impressive."

Duke and Zoe are his dogs. Hold that thought for fifty minutes.

  • 2 yrs ago Tyler is a project manager, self described left brain and type A, with no spiritual interest of any kind. He has been reading about consciousness and out of body experiences for a decade, but as science, not spirituality. He has taken mushrooms exactly twice in his life, once at 19 and once about three years ago. He has never taken LSD.
  • ~18 mo The DMT starts. Early sessions are full breakthrough doses with eyes closed, which he describes as chaos: too fast, too intense, and almost nothing survives the trip back.
  • Trip ~52 The hyper slap. Reality comes back looking like a low resolution copy of itself, objects depopulating and repopulating around his room. The only trip report he has ever written down, out of more than two hundred experiences.
  • Next 4 to 5 mo He stops chasing breakthroughs and moves to low doses, still with his eyes closed. Similar experiences every time.
  • ~Trip 150 One session at roughly 10 to 15 mg he leaves his eyes open. A semi translucent mechanical framework becomes visible in the space in front of his desk. Two pine cone shaped objects rotate slowly across his field of view.
  • Next night He reloads a low dose specifically to test it. It comes back. Same glistening onset at the first hit, same resolution by the end of the dose.
  • +10 times Repeatable enough that he decides he has to tell somebody. He goes looking online and finds Danny Goler describing translucent machines entering the room, in an interview recorded two days earlier.
  • Weeks later Through a Reddit message he reaches Goler's partner at Code of Reality and learns that several other high count users report the identical graduated arc.
  • ~3 mo ago His first out of body experience, with no substance involved, on a morning he had off work.
  • ~2 mo ago The framework resolves into a structure he calls an interface. The reply comes back: that is the console.
  • Now Roughly a hundred consecutive open eye sessions producing the framework, and more than 200 experiences total.
Figure 1. The arc Tyler lays out across the hour, in the order he gives it. The two turning points are both accidents: a bad trip that made him lower the dose, and a random session where he happened to leave his eyes open.

Why the breakthroughs are the part he cannot explain

The host's first question is the fair one: can you explain what you see for those who have not heard about it. Or is it hard to explain.

It is hard to explain, Tyler says, but the difficulty is not evenly distributed. "Once we get to the point, the current, it gets a lot easier to explain. What I'm like seeing, because it's like really repeatable and it's reliable. It's happening every time." The current thing has structure, so language grabs it. The early stuff does not.

"On like early breakthrough experiences with your, you know, closed eyes, and just out there, it's, dude, it's just, it's chaos, honestly. It's really, it's so fast and so intense and you bring so little of it back."

That last clause is the whole problem with breakthrough reports and Tyler states it without being asked. The bandwidth of the return trip is tiny. Whatever the experience was, what arrives back in a person who can talk is a fragment, and the fragment is what everyone argues about.

Which sets up the first thing that genuinely separates him from most people who have done this. He cannot understand the common reaction. "You always read like people are like, they do it once and they're like, man, I could, I'm good. Like I never need to do that again." He circles it twice, visibly puzzled by it. "How could anybody want to do this like one time or a few times and just be like, I'm good? Like how could you possibly not? It's so novel. And it's so real. It feels so, it just, all I could think after those first few times was like, yeah, how could anybody only do this a few times and be done with it or be good with it and never want to have that experience again? Because I feel like you're barely scratching the surface of what's going on."

That is the sentence that explains the number two hundred. He did not go back two hundred times because it felt good. He went back because he read the first few as an incomplete measurement.

He also lays out his prior, which he returns to repeatedly because he knows how the story sounds. He has never been a spiritual person until the last year and a half. But he has been "very very interested in consciousness" and in out of body experiences and lucid dreaming for far longer, and specifically from a science angle: "what is actually going on? What is reality? How are we interacting with this thing? Like what's really going on here kind of thing, but not in a spiritual sense."

He had already tried and failed at the drug free version. Several years ago he spent three or four months trying to learn to lucid dream and to have out of body experiences and got, in his words, zero success. One time he did trigger a lucid dream and "I got so excited I like woke up immediately. I was super bummed about it."

And then the detail that quietly seeds the last twenty minutes of the episode. Since the DMT experiences began, the drug free stuff has started working. He has had several recent lucid dreams where he stayed lucid and held the dream together. One time he went out of body simultaneously, which he calls extremely weird. "It does feel like there's a lot of crossover with this stuff, man. If it's a Venn diagram, they're overlapping, you know? Something about what DMT's doing to your brain."

The hyper slap: reality running at thirty percent

Then, in his words, "I had like a really intense negative experience." The host asks if he can talk about it. He can, and this is the most specific piece of description in the entire hour.

It started with a physical cue. "It was like this whoosh feeling and, or whoosh sound, like a whooshing sound." When his vision came back and he could make out his surroundings again, he looked around the room and everything looked wrong.

This is the only trip he has ever written a trip report about. More than two hundred experiences, one written record, and it is this one. In the report he reached for a computing metaphor and stayed inside it, which is worth noticing given where the rest of the episode goes.

"It felt like my surroundings, reality as I was perceiving it, looked like the, if say this is a computer, right, we're in a program, and normally your perception is at 100% processing power, like everything's running fine, right? Well, it felt like the processing was dialed back like 30%."

What that meant in practice was resolution loss and object culling. "Everything looked like low resolution copies of itself." He scanned the room, and the room could not keep up. "I'm literally seeing things like depopulate and repopulate, like objects like the remote on my desk or something, like depopulate, repopulate. It was almost like in this 30% processing power it could only render like, you know, 10 objects or 20 objects in my field of view or something like that." Everything looked, in his phrase, like a pale comparison of reality.

PERCEPTION AT 100% everything's running fine 12 of 12 objects held, stable, sharp whoosh

PERCEPTION AT ~30% low resolution copies of itself depopulate / repopulate 4 at a time, and the set keeps swapping

Then the same thing happened to the thinking: "I started to realize that my thought process was doing the same thing. I wasn't processing information the same way. And I started to panic."
Figure 2. The hyper slap as Tyler describes it at 5:28. Blue is what rendered. Dashed is what was there a second ago and would be back a second later. The computing metaphor is his, written down the same night in the only trip report he has ever kept.

Then the observation that turned an odd visual into a genuine emergency. The degradation was not confined to the room. "I started to realize that my thinking, like my thought process, was doing the same thing. Like I wasn't processing information the same way. And I started to panic."

He is hard on himself about the panic even while explaining exactly why it happened. "I think this is like probably the worst thing to do, but it was the first time I'd ever had a negative experience, so it was just natural, you know." He lay back down and tried to talk himself out of it: "Dude, it's fine. You're having a bad trip. Everything's good. It's just a time thing. Just wait it out. It's going to be okay." And, flatly: "it just was not working, man."

What the panic did was hand him two conclusions, and both of them are the kind of thought that is very difficult to argue with from the inside.

"I was hit with this like very very very strong sense that either I had died and this was like purgatory or something, just like this low resolution purgatory to like help me with the transition. Or I was like a conscious copy of myself in some kind of program."

He interrupts himself here to be responsible about it, which he does more than once in the episode. "I don't want to scare people out of these experiences, giving you this by telling you about this, but it just is what it is, right? This is like one out of 52, by the way."

Then he did the only thing available, which was to go and check the world manually. "I get up and I check outside. I'm like, is outside still outside? I look outside, everything's fine." Then inside, to verify his family. "I go inside, my family's inside, my wife's in bed, everything's fine. I go to sleep, finally wake up, everything's cool."

And the summary: "But it scared the hell out of me. They call it a hyper slap, I think, is like the terminology in the community. But yeah, dude, it was a significant hyper slap."

The video then runs its one and only ad break, in which the host tells the audience the episode is brought to you by "me, myself, and I. That's it," and asks for a like, a comment, or a subscribe on the grounds that it is the free thing and it helps him a ton.

The host's turn: a bad night in college

At 10:09 the host takes the microphone off Tyler and tells his own story, and it is the most cautionary stretch of the episode precisely because he tells it without polish.

His first DMT experience had been good. Frightening at first, then it settled. "The whole room, like the first one, it freaked me out and it got to the point where I almost couldn't handle it and then it became normal." Geometric shapes. And the beings, which he describes and then immediately says he is describing badly: "I saw those little elf gnome beings that, you know, they're like little jesters. They were like laughing at me." He got through it, and it turned positive. "I felt overwhelming love."

There is one detail in that first trip that he drops in passing and never returns to. "I remember I spoke to my friend who was there and he said things that he told me after the fact that he did not say to me, right? He's like, I didn't talk at all. But he definitely talked to me during that trip."

The second one was the problem, and he is precise about why. The state he was in going into it was, by his own account, a mess. He was in college and out at the bars. He was taking a lot of Adderall, at high doses and consistently, and then taking downers to balance it out because he could not sleep. "It definitely bums you out. I mean, it leaves like this really gnarly emotional hangover kind of. And whenever I start feeling that, I hate it." So he went out and drank, and on that combination "you could drink a lot more than you normally can." He had a bag of pills with him: painkillers, Xanax. "It's just like not a time I'm super proud of, but that's just kind of where I was."

Somewhere in the bar hopping, the kind where "you don't really know how you're getting to the next bar," he ran into a man he had worked with, the same person he had taken DMT with the first time, who lived on that street. "He's like, let's, you want to hit it again? And I was like, let's do it." Late at night, five of them: the host, his best friend, the man with the DMT, and two girls.

And then the honest part: "again, I did not respect it. I rushed into it, because the first time I did it, it was a really good experience." He came in, in his words, cocky. "All right, that was a good experience. Let's run it."

It went bad fast, and the setting did the work. He was on a balcony overlooking a dark alleyway with a street light. "It just freaked me out and I remember saying it like, I don't like this. Like pretty quickly." His best friend saw his face and asked the one question you should never ask.

"He said, are you okay? And every time he said okay, his voice became very demonic. He was like, are you okay? Like really gnarly. And I was like, dude, stop asking me that. And he kept asking me. And I freaked out and I yelled at the top of my lungs, stop asking me that."

Tyler cuts in with the agreement of somebody who has been on the other side of it: "That's like the worst thing anybody can ask you on those, with those experiences. That's the worst."

The two girls left. "Those poor poor girls left after that because they were like, whoa, this guy's losing his mind. But like literally I just wanted people to stop asking me if I'm okay." He shook out of it eventually and does not remember much more of the night, other than that he got a tattoo shortly afterward. "Anyways, it was not great."

Tyler's read on it is the one that generalizes: "It's like once you have that initial thought of, oh, things are going kind of weird, or this isn't going how I was expecting it to, it's funny how quickly it can run away on you."

Mushrooms creep, DMT slaps, and the feeling of something snapping

At 14:38 the conversation turns comparative, and this is where the two men build the clearest working distinction in the episode.

The host has had beautiful experiences on mushrooms, but almost every time there is a stretch he dreads. "It's hard to explain if you've never done it, but there's a period where mushrooms kind of sneak up on you a little bit." Tyler gives the compressed version: "So DMT slaps you in the face, right? It's pretty instant. Mushrooms is like a weird thing because it kind of creeps up on you. Like all of a sudden, hmm, something feels off. And it's kind of a slow roll."

The bad stretch, for the host, is the transition itself. "There's always a period in that where it's like when I'm separating from what's real, like reality, and kind of going into this place. This other part of my brain is turning on and it can be uncomfortable a little bit if you fight it. And my brain always fights it in the beginning."

And then the line that gives the chapter its title, delivered as an act of retroactive empathy rather than as a scare story.

"It made me respect, you know, like when people talk about, oh, like mentally that person broke. Like I never understood what that means, but in those situations, it's the first time I've ever felt like, oh, close to something snapping in my mind. Like I remember being like, oh, that's what they're talking about. Because it's like you can't control it. And you're on the verge of, it feels like going crazy."

Tyler does not argue with the framing or soften it. He just says "Totally. I know exactly what you" and lets him finish.

 DMTMushroomsOut of body
Onset"Slaps you in the face. It's pretty instant.""Creeps up on you." A slow roll, "something feels off."A vibrational state that builds while you lie still at the edge of sleep.
Where it puts youEyes closed, it is external: "you come out of yourself, you come out of your body and experience something somewhere else." Eyes open, it is insular: it alters the room you are already in.Separating from what is real and going "into this place."Your own bedroom, then your own living room. Ordinary geography, wrong vantage point.
Texturetechnological, interactive, scientific, entity encounters that feel like examinations.nature and earth based, gentle, oneness with the universe.No aesthetic at all. The shock is that nothing was taken.
The hard partA breakthrough is chaos you bring almost nothing back from. Worst case is the hyper slap.The stretch where your brain fights the turn, close to "something snapping.""Absolute terror." What if I cannot get back in.
Cost of entryYou took a substance.You took a substance."It's also one that you can achieve without taking anything."
Figure 3. The three states the two men compare across the hour, in their own terms. The comparison is the argument: the same territory reached three ways, with the last one requiring no chemistry, which is exactly why the host keeps steering Tyler toward it.

The one piece of advice: it is a house you cannot leave

The host arrives at the resolution of his own story almost by accident. The way through the bad stretch is not force. "When you push through it, that's when the, it's not even a pushing. It's almost like a letting go. You have to just kind of let, you can't fight it."

Tyler's response is the emotional center of the first half of the episode, because he is fully aware that he is about to say the most repeated sentence in the entire subject and he says it anyway.

"Dude, that is the most cliche thing that you read and you see whenever you're trying to prepare for one of these experiences, or you're seeing other people talk about these experiences online when you're doing your research. But it is the most important piece of advice that anybody can possibly give you, or that you have to actually take seriously. You have to let go. Like you cannot try to fight it. You can't resist it."

The mechanism he offers for how to actually do that is not mystical, it is a reminder of consent: "You just have to remember, I chose to, I'm choosing to do this. Like I did this thing. I took this thing and this is the experience I was looking for. So there's no point in holding on to it."

And then a diagnosis he states as a universal, which is worth flagging as the strong claim it is: "That is where, every time anybody has a bad time, that's always the culprit. It's always resistance or trying to steer it in the direction you want to take it in."

That leads into the one piece of expectation management he wants on record, aimed squarely at the optimization crowd. "The point is not, oh, I want to do this thing so I can do better at my job, or be better at this, or have better relationships. It's like, that's not how it works. It's going to tell you what you need to fix, or it's going to fix the thing that you need, not the thing that you want it to, or you're trying to guide it to."

The host closes the section with the image that sticks, and it doubles as the honest safety warning that the episode never states in a warning voice.

"You open a door, right? And you go into a house you can't leave. And so I think a lot of us, when you start freaking out, you're trying to find the window, and that's what gets you in trouble. It's a house you can't leave, a party you can't leave. You open the door, you're there now. And there is nothing that's going to get you out of it. You have to let go. Sit on the couch, dude, because it's going to be a ride."

The laser guy, and why shared reports change the question

At 18:15 the host steers back: you went from nothing to something, that is brave, and you said there is a repeatable experience. Tyler takes the handoff by first explaining why repeatability across different people is the thing worth caring about.

"I don't know if you've heard of this Danny Goler guy. The laser guy, right? He found out that at a certain dosage level of DMT, if you shine a laser on a wall, you kind of see this very specific thing. And seven or eight out of ten people who do it, which I think there's in the thousands of people that have done it now, everybody has this exact same experience. They see the exact same thing."

Goler's group published a pilot study describing the protocol formally, as a recurring visual phenomenon reported under N,N-DMT while observing a diffracted 650 nanometer laser pattern. Tyler does not cite the paper. He cites the shape of the result, and why it bothers him.

"For psychedelics, that's really something. Shared experiences, there's something going on very strange there, because the typical belief, what everybody has always kind of thought, is that you take the substance and your brain, your consciousness in your brain, is creating something. Is independent, right? Novel to you, like it's coming from you."

He then does the honest bookkeeping on the counterargument before anyone raises it. Archetypes are already known and they are not the same thing. "Obviously there's a lot of archetypal things with lots of different psychedelics, mushrooms, DMT, there's all these things that lots of people kind of say they see often, like the little jesters and things."

That sends the host back to his own first trip, and to the frustration of describing entities. "That's not even the right term. They're not jesters in that they're like geometrical beings. I just remember distinctly being like, okay, I saw shapes I'd never seen before, and then they were like they were alive, they felt like. They didn't feel like shapes." He adds two qualities that both men agree on: they were playful, and they seemed "kind of like interested that I could see them almost is what it felt like. And I'm like, what are they?"

Tyler: "Yeah, it's like they want to show you things. They want to impress you."

Then he draws the line that makes the laser result different in kind rather than degree. "It's not the same as, you line up a line of ten people, everybody does DMT, they walk into another room and look into a laser shine on the wall and they see the exact same thing in this laser, right? So that is interesting."

Dialing it back, opening his eyes, and the framework

At 21:46 the story arrives at its real subject, and it starts with a retreat rather than an escalation.

After the hyper slap, Tyler reconsidered the whole approach. "I was like, okay, man, maybe breakthrough doses every single time isn't necessary." He had seen other people say that sub breakthrough doses are their own thing, that "there's something to be brought back and kind of learned at every level." So for four or five months he took lower doses. Same as always, he kept his eyes closed.

That distinction turns out to be the hinge of the episode, and he explains it plainly. "Usually when you do a closed eye session with DMT, it's more external. You kind of come out of yourself, you come out of your body and experience something somewhere else. And when you leave your eyes open, it's more, it kind of alters your current surroundings in certain ways. It's more of a visual trip in the space that you're in. It's more insular."

Then the accident. One session at a small dose, maybe ten to fifteen milligrams, he left his eyes open, and he cannot fully reconstruct why. The setup matters, because it is his normal setup: he sits at his desk with a big monitor in front of him, some kind of visuals playing on the screen, and low chanting or something droning underneath. "For whatever reason this time I took the hits and then the visuals that were going on the screen kind of started looking really strange, and it just whatever it was kind of triggered me to keep my eyes open."

"And so I'm sitting there and I've got my eyes open and all of a sudden it was real, dude."

What appeared, in the space just off to one side of him, was a semi transparent structure. He hunts for a word and settles on framework. "It almost kind of looked like the inner workings of like an engine or something. It was like mechanisms, right? Just kind of moving in sync with one another."

The specific detail that caught his attention, and the one he repeats later as the thing that made it undeniable, was a pair of objects. "There were these two almost pine cone shaped looking objects spinning slowly across my field of view, kind of up out about right up about here. Kind of like slowly spinning side by side and just moving across my field of view."

Then he describes the optics of the thing, which is the most technically interesting passage in the interview because it is the kind of detail nobody invents to sound impressive.

"It usually fills your field of view, and you can kind of see that there is something occupying all of that space, like individual things occupying the entire space, but you can only really make out in high detail what you focus on. You can only focus in like maybe a cubic foot, right? So if you see something and you focus on that thing, you can easily focus right in, see it, make out its complete shape. You see everything else kind of moving, but it's not clear. It's not like you're standing back looking at a car and you can see the whole car, the shape of the car and everything. It's like you can only clearly see a small space, but you know that there's stuff filling that area around it."

OPEN EYE, LOW DOSE: THE FRAMEWORK semi translucent, in motion, in the space right in front of him about a cubic foot resolves two pine cones, spinning slowly occupied, but never clear something is in all of it

"It's not like you're standing back looking at a car and you can see the whole car." Move the focus and the detail moves with it. The rest keeps moving anyway.

Figure 4. The open eye visual field as Tyler describes it at 21:46. The constraint he reports is a narrow window of resolution inside a fully occupied field, which is closer to how a rendering budget behaves than to how a hallucination is usually described.

At this point he stops the story to establish who is telling it, because he can hear how it sounds.

"At this point, by the way, I'm like maybe 150 trips in. I'm experienced at this point. I don't call myself a psychonaut. The only drugs I've ever done are, I've had two trips on mushrooms, one when I was 19 and then one like three or four years ago, and DMT. Like I've never done LSD or acid or any of the other things."

Then the self portrait, which is the reason this interview is interesting rather than routine: "I'm not a psychedelics guy. I don't like the Grateful Dead. I'm not into that. I'm just not one of those people that are, I'm not what you would think of as somebody who is into all that stuff, right? I'm a project manager by trade. Like I'm very left brain, type A."

Testing it: the next night, and the hundred nights after

What he did next is the part that separates his account from a single anecdote. He went back and tried to reproduce it, deliberately, the very next evening.

The reason was that he could not put it down. "I come out of it, it wears off, and it's all I can think about for the rest of that evening. I go to sleep, I wake up and I'm like, dude, that felt too real. Like I could see this, it was right there."

So: "the next evening, load up a low dose, and it's like I just know that when I do this low dose and I sit here with my eyes open, I'm going to see this again."

He describes the onset with a precision that reads like someone who has now watched it happen a hundred times, because he has. At about ten to twelve milligrams, "slowly after about the first hit, I start to see this kind of glistening. It's like I start seeing this glistening of almost like the edges of things. And then about second hit, as I finish the dose, it becomes much more clear."

Then the count, and the claim: "And dude, I'm like a hundred times this has happened. And it's every single time now."

He is careful about what exactly repeats. It is not a fixed image. "It's never like the exact replicable same thing, but it's always some type of framework that is semi translucent." The content varies, the tone or appearance varies, the category does not.

For what semi translucent means he reaches for the best available reference and the host gets there with him.

"You know the Predator movies? So, you know, like he can cloak himself. There's this thing where in those movies he pushes a button on his little control thing and he goes like." The host finishes it: you can kind of see it, but you can't. "Exactly. If you got closer to him though, you'd be able to make out the shapes and the outline of him. But yeah, it's exactly like that. It shows up semi transparent, but it's right there and it's every single time."

Going looking for other people, and finding them

At 29:53 the story stops being private. "After this happens maybe ten times, I'm like, dude, I got to tell somebody. This is really weird."

So he did what a project manager does with an anomaly. He went looking for a matching report. "I start looking into, is there anybody that's having similar experiences? Listening to people that are prominent in the DMT space talk about their experiences."

The coincidence he lands on is the sort of thing that would strain a script. He found an interview Danny Goler had given, and by his account it had been recorded two days before he started searching. The interviewer asked Goler the plainest possible question: explain what a DMT experience is like for you. If you took some right now, what would you see.

"And he said, the first thing that would happen is I would see this kind of translucent, he was like, I don't know if it's beings or like machines or something, kind of come into the room."

Tyler's reaction, verbatim: "And I was like, what? Like no way, like that's crazy. Impossible, right?"

He emailed Goler, who is a busy man and did not answer. So he went to Reddit, where he had been reading about the laser experiment, and messaged somebody who had said they were on the team. That turned out to be Goler's partner at Code of Reality, a man who goes by Eric online and whose name Tyler gives as David Carter. Tyler names the project on air and asks the audience to use it: "It's code of reality dot com for anybody that's interested in this stuff and wants to go check it out, or is having similar experiences, please go check that out and leave your experiences there."

The reply came a few days later, and the reason he got a reply at all is the most quietly instructive part of the episode. Carter apologized for the delay and explained the volume they deal with: "you wouldn't believe the torrent of weird shit that he gets sent all the time, with people telling them they've found the code of the universe or they figured out reality."

Then the filter that got Tyler through it. "One thing that kind of stands out and always makes a difference is that you weren't saying you had some answers, you were basically just asking questions. Like, I'm having this experience and I have no idea what's going on. I just wanted to discuss it, see if anybody else is having the same experience."

They talked, more than once. And what Tyler learned is the load bearing claim of the whole interview.

"It turns out that there are several people that have this exact same experience, where they do a low dose and they leave their eyes open and then there's this framework. Sometimes it looks biological, sometimes it looks mechanical, but something 100% of the time shows up in their field of view and is almost interactive."

Crucially, it is not something that happens to newcomers. "It seems to be a graduated experience. It's usually people who have had lots of experiences over a period of, it's not something that anybody sees early on or the first few times, or even the first, you know, what, 50 times."

He then flags his own epistemic position without being asked to, twice. "This is all speculative at this point. Unfortunately." And on who is working on it: Code of Reality plus "some other small startups that are also getting into actually studying this stuff. Trying to figure out what is going on, what's happening, why it's happening, and how, why and how it's so repeatable."

The remote test

The single best passage in the interview is Tyler explaining how he tried to break it, and it turns on a property that anybody who has lucid dreamed will recognize.

Psychedelic and dream imagery is malleable. You can push on it. "With a lot of psychedelic experiences, they're very chaotic and you can kind of impose your will. Or you've had a lucid dream, right? You can look at something and cause things, things aren't right always. It's like things kind of shift and morph."

The host supplies the word: malleable. "You can look at something and put your direct attention on it and like the shape will hold for a moment, but it'll kind of go wonky."

That is exactly the test Tyler ran, over and over, and it is exactly what he says does not happen here.

"With this, it's not, dude. It's like remote. I'm looking at the remote. It's right there. The fucking remote is right there, dude. It's not moving. It's not, I can't make it distort. It's not distorting. It's right there. It's the same experience."

He has, in his words, tested it so many times, putting his direct scrutiny on it, trying to force it to behave like the malleable stuff. It refuses.

And then the honest limit, stated as clearly as the claim. "I don't know if it's pulling some veil back and allowing you to see something that's already there, or if it's putting out a signal and calling something to you. I don't know. That we don't know yet."

What he does insist on is narrower and harder to dismiss: "The bottom line is that there is something happening repeatably, reliably, with many people."

His closing statement of the section is the one he clearly came on the show to make. "All I want your audience or anybody else who's interested in this stuff to understand is that, I don't know what's happening. These people that are studying this stuff don't know what's happening. But it is happening. It is real. It's actually happening. There is something going on when your consciousness interacts with this molecule. It is doing something."

What does it mean, beyond what it is

At 38:00 the host asks the question the cold open promised. A lot of people are seeing it. People are trying to run tests on it. It is as real as real can be, multiple times. So what do you think it means, on a broader sense? What are your theories?

Tyler prefaces the answer with the same caution he has been using all hour: "So again, so much in this is speculation, almost all of it at this point."

Then he gives credit rather than taking it. The framing he uses came from David Carter, and it reorganized how he thought about the whole thing. "He nailed it when he said that he gets a very strong sense, and other people around him get a very strong sense, that this is a school. Like this is a learning experience. It's trying to teach or show us something."

He immediately declines to fill in the curriculum. "It's very early, so I don't know what. But it does feel like it's almost inviting you to interact with it."

That word, inviting, is doing specific work. Everything up to this point in the interview has been a passive report: a thing appears, it does not distort, it repeats. The school framing is the first time the relationship is described as two way, and it is the setup for what he says next.

The console

At 40:30 Tyler tells the part he has clearly been building toward, and he opens it with an apology.

For a long stretch the appearances varied. "Something would always appear, this translucent form would always appear and kind of be in motion there in my field of view, but it was almost always something different, or it had a kind of a different tone or a different appearance."

Then, roughly two months before this recording, and, as he notes, right before he sent the show its first email, that changed.

"Dude, I know this sounds crazy and I promise I am just a regular dude. But basically it looked like, to me, I called it an interface when I was describing it."

He took the description to David Carter, who did not need to hear the end of it. "He was like instantly like, oh, that's the console. That's the console. You're experiencing the console."

The sequencing he gives is that of a threshold cleared. "After a certain period of time, it's like, okay, I'm able to see these things now. They're becoming visible. I've had whatever graduation I had to get to to start seeing this stuff." Then the console shows up.

His actual description is halting, and one of the reasons it is worth taking seriously as testimony is that he interrupts himself to avoid borrowing anybody else's vocabulary. "I see this kind of half spherical, I don't want to use the same words that I've heard other people use because I don't want it to sound like, so anyway, I'm sorry."

Assembled, what he reports is three moving parts.

"I'd take the hit and it looks like a literal console basically. Raises up in my field of view. Again, this is all translucent though. Nothing's ever solid, like filled in textures and everything. It's always this transparent form. I see this kind of half spherical thing kind of raises up, and it almost looks like a screen go like folds out, like folds up and then out. And then there's another kind of off to the right of it, a slowly articulating kind of spinning, not coat rack but kind of like a coat rack."

THE CONSOLE, AS DESCRIBED AT 40:30 every element semi translucent, nothing with filled in textures folds up, then out half spherical, raises up slowly articulating, "kind of like a coat rack" "I called it an interface when I was describing it." The reply came back before he finished: "Oh, that's the console. That's the console. You're experiencing the console."
Figure 5. The three parts of the console, reconstructed from Tyler's own words at 40:30. He breaks off mid description to avoid borrowing terminology he has heard other people use, which is why the shapes stay this generic. Four or five other people, he says, now get presented with it every time, "like clockwork."

He runs out of language, and says so: "It's strange, dude. It's hard to describe a lot of this stuff because there's not really, you know." The host lets him off the hook: "I got it. They're novel experiences. I got it."

Substances as one door, not the only door

The host's response to the console is to reach for the simulation argument, lightly: "some of the smartest people in the world are convinced that we are in some kind of simulation, right?" And then, immediately, to hedge it himself. "This is just take this for what it's worth at all. I mean, grain of salt, big grain of salt."

His actual position on psychedelics turns out to be strikingly unromantic, and it is the pivot into the entire back half of the episode. He puts them in the same category as anything else you put in your body. "I think it's no different than like you take vitamin D or something. There's obvious that you could take things and your body reacts to it and it has benefits and all these things. I think psychedelics are part of that."

What he thinks they do: "They help you escape from the normal day to day that your brain is locked into, right? And they remind you again that, whoa. Maybe a little more on the why we're here, but they force you to think about things. There's a lot of gratitude that comes from them."

And then the recommendation he clearly invited Tyler on to make. At 43:41 he tells him to go do it without the molecule.

"So Monroe just released a new thing about 30 days ago. I'm going to do it. I think they're calling it the Gateway Voyage, but it's their program where if you went to the Monroe Institute and you took their program, they put it online, and they have something called Monroe Sound Science. It's a more advanced version of their binaural beats."

His credential for saying so is his own history, which mirrors Tyler's in one respect and inverts it in another. "You're talking to the guy who's very similar to you in that, maybe I'm not so type A, but I'm very like, didn't take anything my whole life. The very first thing I did take was not beer, was not a cigarette. The very first thing I took was salvia."

That first experience was, by his description, an unintentional out of body. "That's pretty extreme for your first thing and it knocked me out, and I remember falling below my body and I remember looking at my hands and being, who am I? I didn't know who I was and it really upset me. So in a way that was like my first out of body. I didn't know that's what it was at the time."

He then describes one he had a few nights before the recording, the first in two years, and the description is a small clinic in how these are reported to begin. He had been half watching a show with his wife, drifting in and out, then got up, stayed awake a while, and lay back down. "As I started to fall asleep I felt myself in a weird state where my body was starting to fall asleep, because I would feel myself get really heavy, and I know this, right, because I've done this now before. I'm like, oh, here's the feeling again. And then sure enough I got the vibration feeling."

Which is where Tyler drops the fact that reframes his entire hour: "So yeah, I did. I've had one OBE and it was only been like three months ago and it completely freaked me out. Like scared the shit out of me."

Why an out of body experience can hit harder than DMT

At 45:31 the host makes the case that the drug free version is the more shocking of the two, and his reason is the absence of a cause.

"Dude, to me that is even more gnarly, because DMT, it blasts you into this world and it's fascinating, but the out of body one, the vibration is so intense, and then you know you're not taking anything. So it's like very strange. It's like, what is happening?"

The sales pitch follows: "I think you'd really enjoy exploring that world because it's also one that you can achieve without taking anything, and it also has layers of weirdness to it, right, where you start talking to different beings and you go further and further and further."

Then he brings in something from another interview he had done, and it becomes the closest thing the episode has to a cosmology. A woman had described a meditation that took her somewhere with nothing in it. "It was just complete blackness." He notes that many cultures and a lot of people who have out of body experiences describe the same place. "There's this realm and then there's this other place where you go and it's nothing. And they say that's your truest form. It's not black, but it's just nothingness, true nothingness. And that's where you often feel super at peace. You're just like, wow, you don't want to leave it, because you are everything and everything is you."

Her analogy is a pool. "That's the black space. We're all in it right now. And at the same time we're all connected because we're all in that water. So we're all one in that way. But it's almost like we have this bubble around us and it's projecting at all times. And when you go in and out of body, you're still in that bubble. You're just at a different layer of it. But when you get beyond the bubble, you're in the nothingness."

The host then connects it to Tyler's console himself, and does it in the form of a question rather than a claim. "It's interesting to think about the thing you're talking about, the console. It's almost like, what if that is some advanced thing that you're almost seeing the actual technology of it that's putting this all around us? It just makes me think about that. I'm like, whoa, what if that's what's happening?"

Tyler's answer is careful and complete: "I would be lying if I said that I have not thought something similar."

Why DMT feels technological and mushrooms do not

At 48:20 Tyler makes the distinction that, more than the console itself, is the actual thesis of his account. It is not that DMT is more intense. It is that it has the wrong aesthetic.

Mushrooms, in the shared experience of both men, have a consistent flavor. "There's this very nature, earth based," Tyler says, and the host finishes it: "It's gentle." A vibe, both agree.

"DMT specifically is very technological, which is very different and very strange and novel and unique for a psychedelics experience, because usually it is more like a spiritual oneness with the universe and nature kind of thing. You can get that in some ways out of DMT, but DMT is much more described as feeling very technological and, not sterile, but technological. And interactive with almost things that feel scientific and from somewhere else."

He backs it with the reported entity encounters, which he notes are not his own but are widely enough reported to have a shape. "There's a common experience that a lot of people have and have had maybe three or four times where they feel like they wake up, or they find themselves on like an examining table in a highly technological, almost like future ER or something. A hyper technological examining room with usually some type of mantis, or some type of scientists or doctors over them, doing some kind of examination."

Which sets up the sentence that most cleanly states what he is and is not claiming, including his reluctance about the word everyone reaches for.

"I've definitely considered that, hey, is this console, are these headsets in this console, is this the game? Or the reality as we're experiencing it right now, is it some type of technology? Is it the simulation thing? I hate to use that. But you can only present what you're experiencing as you're experiencing it, and if it lines up with some passe theory of reality, it is what it is. You can't dismiss it because it's been discussed so much recently."

Then, unprompted, he gives the competing explanation as fairly as he gives his own, which is the single most credible thing he does in the hour.

"Of course it can start to feel like, okay, am I seeing the controls here for some reason? Am I, have I just soaked my brain with enough of this molecule that it's able to, under these certain conditions, experience something that is there just right beyond view, or right beyond our regular perception?"

Two readings, stated in one breath: a control interface belonging to the world, or a brain saturated enough with a specific molecule to render something under specific conditions. He does not pick.

What he does insist on is the pattern that makes the question worth asking at all: "when you're presented with some type of control interface and it's every single time after a certain number of graduated experiences, other people with similar high count experiences as you start to experience the exact same thing in the exact same ways without talking to one another about it."

And then, once more, the disclaimer he cannot stop making: "I know, trust me. I get how crazy all of this sounds to you. 99% of people. Two years ago, I would have been one of those people that are like, this is crazy, this guy is hallucinating, this is your brain on drugs. And just dismiss it."

The audience, and the wife

At 52:14 the host cuts him off to tell him he can stop apologizing. "You're on a podcast where my whole audience doesn't think it's weird, dude." Tyler, relieved: "Well, good. You're not going to have a bunch of people saying like, this guy is tripping."

"Like we all have had out of bodies," the host says.

And then the most human stretch of the episode, which is about neither drugs nor consciousness. It is about what happens when one person in a marriage starts reporting things the other person has no way to check.

"My own wife knows that I've had them, but she's just kind of like, all right. She doesn't quite understand, and that's fine. I don't need her to be as into it as me. But in my head I'm like, no, this isn't just, I'm not tripping. This is real."

Tyler recognizes it exactly. "My wife is exactly like I was two years ago. It's like all of a sudden I'm a different person." He describes calling her after his out of body experience, before he had even told her he was trying to have one. "The first thing I did was call her and try to tell her about it, and she's just like, okay, dude."

Neither man makes a complaint out of it. Both just note it and move on, which is somehow more telling than a complaint would have been.

The out of body experience, told properly

At 53:12 the host asks the direct question: so what happened in your OBE?

Tyler starts by lowering expectations, which is a good sign in a story of this kind. "I wish it was more interesting. I wish I went to some crazy liminal space, but I haven't made it that far yet."

The setup takes a minute, and it is worth having, because it explains why he was trying at all. His interest in consciousness predates everything. He offers a specific memory as evidence: "I remember when the D-Wave computer came out, that was like the first quantum computer. It's probably been a decade or more ago. This guy, I think his name's David Rose, gave a talk. He was the guy who created this first quantum computer. I remember showing my wife this video of him doing this talk like 10 or 12 years ago, and she was just like, you're interested in this stuff?"

What the DMT changed was not the interest, it was the sense that the subject was reachable. "It wasn't until having these DMT experiences where I realized, oh, you can interact with this stuff. There is a way to actually have some tangible experiences you can either learn from or try to confirm some things, or just kind of play with it a little bit."

So he tried, deliberately, for two or three months, doing the standard practices. He got to the vibrational stage maybe twice.

"I'd made it to the point of having very very strong pulsing. It would start at my head and kind of wash down my body to my feet, and it felt like it was pulsing up and down my body. Really, really strong vibrations, to the point of almost feeling like I was going to explode. Like feel like I was just going to pop."

And then nothing. "It's like I would get to that point and think, okay, surely this is the point where I'm supposed to try to sit up or roll over. And I would do it and I would just sit up, you know. I wasn't, I wouldn't make it out of body." He was getting, in his careful phrasing, "not going to say frustrated, a little bit frustrated, but kind of like, this is not going to happen for me. I keep getting to this certain point and I can't seal the deal."

Then it happened on a morning when he was not trying at all.

He had the day off work. He got up around six in the morning to get his son ready for school, sent him on his way, and went back to bed for a few hours. He notes in passing that this is a known lucid dreaming technique, sleeping about six hours, getting up for thirty minutes, then going back down. "Well, something about this specific time, I wasn't, that's not the intention. I just so happened to get up and be up for like 30 minutes and go back to bed."

His wife had already left for work. He was alone in the house with the two dogs. He was on his back in bed, in what he calls the liminal space, in and out of sleep.

"And I start to feel the vibrational state coming on. And I'm definitely not asleep."

The host jumps in on that point because it is the point everybody outside gets wrong. "You're conscious when you're asleep. You're thinking your thoughts. You're like, whoa, what's happening?" Tyler: "That is one of those things you can only understand if you've been there. So many people just dismiss it. It's like, oh, you probably fell asleep or something. It's like, dude, you just don't know unless you know."

This time he did not fight for it. "I feel the vibrations start happening. I'm like, oh, shit. Like, okay. All right. This is happening. It's coming on naturally. I just start letting it happen and really trying to focus on just letting go and just kind of being there in myself, and waiting for that vibrational state to reach the right point."

"I kind of start hearing this kind of hum, and the vibrations are very very strong. I feel it kind of reach my head. I just went for it and I sat up."

He sat up, turned sideways on the bed, and put his feet on the floor. He was not sure yet whether he was in or out.

Then he looked back at the bed.

"There I am on the pillow with my, not a flattering vision of myself. I'm laying there on the pillow with like my mouth open, like drooling on the pillow, not looking attractive at all."

This is the detail that does the most work in the whole story, and he knows it, because he immediately explains why. "When you think of yourself, you reflect yourself in your best possible state. Like I would have been laying there perfect, my hair's perfect, no drool coming out of my mouth. But I'm like almost jarred, like, ah, dude, is that what I look like when I'm asleep?"

And then the fear arrived. "I got really really scared. It kind of freaked me out. I'd read people say like it can be really scary because it's a novel experience. It's totally new. I'm having all the thoughts of like, oh my god, like I'm out. I'm out. What if I can't get back? What if I can't go back in my body?"

"It is absolute terror. But I get it under control to the point of just holding it together."

The dog test

At 1:01:50 the story becomes an experiment, and it becomes one because of a decision Tyler had made months earlier, on the ground, in advance.

"I'm like, okay, while I'm here, let's test this. I remember specifically thinking, and I thought a thousand times before, when I'm trying to have these experiences, I'm like, I have to figure out a way to test if it's really happening. Like I need to find something I can look at and then go and test and see if it's the same."

His verdict on that piece of preparation: "Thank god I had that thought."

He calmed himself down and picked his target. Two dogs, a little dachshund and a Chihuahua, who hang out in the living room. Their sleeping positions are arbitrary, they change constantly, and nobody was awake in the house to move them. As an ad hoc control it is genuinely well chosen.

"I get up, I walk into the living room, and my little weenie dog is at the end of the couch, under the two throw pillows, on his back. And literally all you can see of my little weenie dog is the bottom half of his body, with his little, he's on his back with his little legs kind of sprawled out, and he's sleeping on his back covered by the pillows. And my little Chihuahua is over in her little bed in a little tiny little ball tucked into the corner of her bed."

Then he took the reading. "And I'm like, okay, all right. Mental note. Weenie dog on his back. Chihuahua in the bed in a ball. Got it."

Going back was a matter of doing everything he had read at once. "I do what I'd always heard everybody say. You just literally just lay back down in your body, or go back in your body, or just think, I want to go back in my body. And I kind of did all of them simultaneously. Like I laid back down where I was laying and I just kind of thought, I want to be back in my body. And I'm back in my body."

"I open my eyes, wake up, and I'm back in my body. I'm like, oh my god. Oh my god. Oh my god, that's crazy. I can't believe that just happened. Get up, walk in the living room."

And the result: "Weenie dog is on his back exactly how I just saw it. The dogs are exactly where they were when I got up and went and looked, right? My mind is completely blown. Can't believe this just happened."

Then the phone call, to a wife who did not know any of this was going on. "I hadn't even told her that I'm trying to have these out of body experiences or anything, and I just dump all this on her. Like, you would not believe what just happened. I just had an out of body experience. I've been trying to do this. I was vibrating. I popped out of my body. Freaked me out. I saw Duke and Zoe."

"And she's just like, what are you talking about, dude?"

His own verdict is one sentence, and it is the sentence the episode ends up resting on: "But yeah, man, that was my out of body experience. It 100% happened. It was real."

Closing: weenie brothers

At 1:03:48 the host closes on the recommendation he has been making since the middle of the hour. Tyler's first attempt impresses him on technical grounds: "That's impressive. Like for your first one to be able to walk around, that's impressive."

So, once more, Monroe. "I think you should look into the Monroe one. I'm going to do it here soon. I just hear a lot of good positive reviews on it. They got some cool stuff and I'm going to give it a go. So definitely you should try it, too."

And then the actual last exchange of the episode, which after an hour of consoles and translucent machinery is about dachshunds.

"And on a side note, before we go, I got two wiener dogs, too, dude."

"They're so great, man. I love them so much."

"Weenie brothers, man."

Then thanks both ways, an agreement to stay in touch, and out.

Key takeaways

Notable quotes

"It's so fast and so intense and you bring so little of it back." (1:33, Tyler, on breakthrough doses)

"How could anybody only do this a few times and be done with it? Because I feel like you're barely scratching the surface of what's going on." (1:33, Tyler)

"It felt like the processing was dialed back like 30%. Everything looked like low resolution copies of itself." (5:28, Tyler, on the hyper slap)

"I'm literally seeing things like depopulate and repopulate." (5:28, Tyler)

"Every time he said okay, his voice became very demonic. And I freaked out and I yelled at the top of my lungs, stop asking me that." (10:09, the host, on his second DMT experience)

"It's the first time I've ever felt like, oh, close to something snapping in my mind. Like I remember being like, oh, that's what they're talking about." (14:38, the host, on mushrooms)

"It is the most important piece of advice that anybody can possibly give you. You have to let go. Like you cannot try to fight it." (16:12, Tyler)

"It's a house you can't leave, a party you can't leave. You open the door, you're there now. Sit on the couch, dude, because it's going to be a ride." (16:12, the host)

"Seven or eight out of ten people who do it, which I think there's in the thousands of people that have done it now, everybody has this exact same experience." (18:15, Tyler, on the laser protocol)

"And so I'm sitting there and I've got my eyes open and all of a sudden it was real, dude." (21:46, Tyler)

"You can only really make out in high detail what you focus on. It's not like you're standing back looking at a car and you can see the whole car." (21:46, Tyler)

"I'm not a psychedelics guy. I don't like the Grateful Dead. I'm a project manager by trade. Like I'm very left brain, type A." (21:46, Tyler)

"The fucking remote is right there, dude. It's not moving. I can't make it distort." (29:53, Tyler, on why this is not like lucid dream imagery)

"You weren't saying you had some answers, you were basically just asking questions." (29:53, David Carter's reply, quoted by Tyler)

"It is happening. It is real. It's actually happening. There is something going on when your consciousness interacts with this molecule." (29:53, Tyler)

"He gets a very strong sense that this is a school. Like this is a learning experience. It's trying to teach or show us something." (38:00, Tyler, quoting David Carter)

"He was like instantly like, oh, that's the console. That's the console. You're experiencing the console." (40:30, Tyler)

"Have I just soaked my brain with enough of this molecule that it's able to, under these certain conditions, experience something that is there just right beyond view?" (48:20, Tyler, giving the other explanation)

"Two years ago, I would have been one of those people that are like, this is crazy. This guy is hallucinating. This is your brain on drugs." (52:14, Tyler)

"There I am on the pillow with my, not a flattering vision of myself, laying there with my mouth open, like drooling on the pillow." (53:12, Tyler, on seeing his own body)

"I have to figure out a way to test if it's really happening. Thank god I had that thought." (1:01:50, Tyler)

"Mental note. Weenie dog on his back. Chihuahua in the bed in a ball. Got it." (1:01:50, Tyler)

"But yeah, man, that was my out of body experience. It 100% happened. It was real." (1:01:50, Tyler)

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Where it stands

The episode is a first person report, and it is an unusually careful one. Tyler labels his speculation as speculation at least four separate times, credits other people for the framings he uses, and volunteers the deflationary explanation for his own experience without being pushed. That is worth saying plainly before anything else. Here is where the various claims actually sit.

The pharmacology is not in dispute. DMT reliably produces short, extremely intense visual and experiential states, and the recurrence of certain content across users is documented rather than fringe: Rick Strassman's clinical work in the 1990s and Chris Timmermann's neuroimaging work at Imperial College both catalogue entity encounters and structured visual environments as common features. That people report similar things is established. What that similarity implies is the whole argument.

The laser protocol has a written pilot study, not a controlled trial. The Code of Reality paper describes a striking convergence in what participants report, but it is posted rather than peer reviewed, participants know the protocol going in, and the expected content circulates freely in the community before anybody doses. Expectancy is a very large confound for any perceptual report, and it is the specific confound this design does the least to control. A blinded version, where naive participants describe what they see before they are exposed to anybody else's description, and independent raters score the matches, is a study somebody could actually run. Nobody in this episode claims it has been run.

Tyler's own sequence is better than the average anecdote on exactly one axis, and worse on another. By his account the open eye framework appeared before he had ever heard Goler describe it, which is the right order for a report to be interesting. But the console arrived after months of conversation with Goler's partner, in a vocabulary supplied by that partner, which is the wrong order. Both facts are in the interview and both belong in any honest reading of it.

Rigidity is a phenomenological observation, not an ontological one. "I can't make it distort" is a genuinely interesting property and it is the kind of thing an experienced user is well placed to notice. It does not establish that the object is external. Stable percepts that resist volitional modification are a known feature of several altered states, and stability under scrutiny is a fact about the visual system's output as much as about the thing being looked at.

The dog test is the strongest and the weakest thing in the episode at once. Deciding in advance to look for something checkable is genuinely good instinct, and most out of body reports do not include even that much. But the test as run has no independent observer, the target was recalled after returning rather than recorded at the time, and the answer space is small: sleeping dogs occupy a handful of habitual spots and postures, and a person who lives with them has strong priors about all of them. Attempts to run this properly have a long history, from Charles Tart's laboratory sessions in the 1960s to the AWARE study placing hidden targets in hospital resuscitation rooms, and none of them have produced results that survive scrutiny. That is the context Tyler's morning sits in. It does not make his experience less vivid or less real to him, and he never claims it proves anything beyond itself.

On safety, the episode is more honest than most. Nothing here is a recommendation, and the doses named are reported, not endorsed. DMT is a Schedule I controlled substance in the United States and illegal in most jurisdictions. The two worst experiences described in the episode both have obvious antecedents that the men name themselves: the host went in on a night of alcohol, high dose stimulants, benzodiazepines and painkillers, having rushed it and, in his words, not respected it, and Tyler's hyper slap resolved into a panic loop he could not talk himself out of. Both of them land on the same advice, and it is the advice that matters more than any of the metaphysics: do not do it in a bad state, do not do it to fix something specific, do not resist it once it starts, and do not ask somebody in the middle of one whether they are okay.

What would move this from testimony to evidence is narrow and stated by the participants themselves. Tyler says nobody knows what is happening, including the people studying it. He says the graduated arc means low count users do not report the framework at all. Both of those are structured, falsifiable claims. If a blinded protocol found high count users converging on descriptions that naive users never produce, that would be a real result and an interesting one. Until then, what the episode delivers is a careful, self aware, internally consistent account from someone who did not want to be the guy telling this story, and who spends a good deal of the hour saying so.

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======================================== Dude, I know this sounds crazy, and [music] I promise I am just a regular a regular dude. I called it an interface when I was describing it. Um, he was like instantly like, oh, that's the console. [music] That's the console. You're experiencing the console. It almost it looks like a screen go like like folds up [music] and then out. There's like four or five other people. They get presented with the [music] console every single time now, too. It's like clockwork. What what are you What do you think it means? Beyond just like what you think it is, what do you think it means on a broader sense? Like this is a learning experience. [music] This wanting it's it's like a it's trying to teach or show us something. Is this the control board for this game? Or this the reality is we're experiencing it right now is is it some type of technology? [music] Two years ago, I would have been one of those people that are like, this is crazy. This guy is hallucinating. This is your brain on drugs. I'm having all the thoughts of like Oh my god, like I'm out. I'm out. What if I can't get back? [music] You know, what if I can't go back to my body? I saw Duke and Zoe. I'm like, oh my god. Oh my god. Dude, that that's it that's impressive like for your first one to be able to walk around, that's impressive. >> [music] [music] [crying] >> Can you explain what you see for those who haven't heard about it? Sure. So >> Or is it hard to explain? [clears throat] It's very hard to explain, but um once we get to the point the current it gets a lot easier to explain. What I what I what I'm like seeing cuz it's like really repeatable and it's reliable. It's happening every time. But um on And like early breakthrough experiences with your, you know, closed eyes and just out there, it's Dude, it's just it's it's it's chaos, honestly. It's It's really It's It's so fast and so intense and you bring so little of it back that um it is really hard to explain, but I mean, I've had So, another little thing um and I don't suggest this for everybody. It's not for everybody, but um after those first few times, I was like you know, you always read like people are like uh they do it once and they're like, "Man, I could I I'm good. Like I I never need to do that again, you know?" Or um And and I remember all I could think is how could anybody want to do this like one time or a few times and just be like "I'm good." Like how how could you possibly not It's so novel. And it's so It's so real. It feels so It just I I All I could All I could think after after those first few times was like, "Yeah, how could anybody only do this a few times and be done with it or be good with it and never want to have that experience again?" Because I feel like you're barely you're barely scratching the surface of what's going on. Like That's That's another thing. So, like I said, I've never been really a spiritual person until like the last year and a half until all this until [clears throat] this stuff started, but um I have been very very uh in- conscious I've been very very interested in consciousness and um out-of-body experiences, stuff like that. A lot of stuff you talk about, honestly. Lucid dreaming like um all of that stuff. Based more on like a consciousness um science you know, what is actually going on? You know, um what is reality? How are we How are we interacting with this thing? Like uh what's really going on here kind of thing, but not in a spiritual sense. So, um because of the uh so like I'd several years ago like I've been trying to I I spent like three or four months like trying to learn how to lucid dream and learn how to have OBEs and and things like that and just had like zero um success. Like one time I did trigger myself into having a lucid dream and I got so excited I like woke up immediately. I was super bummed about it. But, um yeah, but but but strangely since um since having my DMT experiences like I've actually had like uh several recent um lucid dreams where I like was able to stay lucid, stay intact, and go through a like have a full dream expe- lucid dream experience. I was I like simultaneously went out of body one time recently, which extremely weird. Um uh so I I feel there it does feel like there's a lot of like uh there's a lot of crossover with this stuff, man. There's a lot of like uh if it's a Venn diagram, they're overlapping, you know? Um something about something about um what DMT's doing to your brain. And then I had like a really intense um negative experience. Which uh Can you talk about it? It was like this whoosh feeling and or whoosh sound, like a whooshing sound. And when my vision is kind of like restored, when I'm able to kind of make out my surroundings again I'm looking around the room um and everything looks kind of wrong um and the best way I can describe it I wrote a trip report this is the this is the only time I've ever written a trip report and I've had probably 200 plus experiences at this point and it's it's the only one I ever wrote a trip report about and in the in the trip report I kind of explained it like um it felt like it felt like my surroundings reality as I was perceiving it uh look like the if this is a if say this is a a computer right the we're in a program and normally your perception is at 100% processing power like the everything's running fine right well it felt like the uh processing was dialed back like 30% it was really strange everything looked like low resolution copies of itself and I remember like so I scanned the room I'm looking around the room that I'm in and I'm literally seeing things like depopulate and repopulate like like objects like remote on my desk or something like depopulate repopulate it was almost like in this like 30% processing power it could only render like you know 10 objects or 20 objects in my field of view or something like that and I'm like scanning the room and and I'm [clears throat] seeing things like depopulate repopulate everything looks very low resolution very um uh it's it's like a pale like comparison of of reality of what my normal reality looks like and like I started to uh to to realize that my thinking like my thought process was doing the same thing like I wasn't uh processing information the same way and I started to panic. And I think this is like probably the worst thing that to do, but it was the it was the first time I'd ever had a negative experience. so it was just natural, you know, I just naturally kind of started to panic. And that panic kind of sent me into worst case scenarios, right? And um so I started to I I like I lay back down and I'm trying to like talk myself back into, >> [clears throat] >> you know, back into like, "Dude, this it's fine. You're having a bad trip. Everything's good. It's just a time thing. Just wait it out." You know, it it's going to be okay. And um it just was not working, man. Uh so I was hit with this like this very very very strong sense that either I had died and this was like purgatory or something like just like this like low resolution purgatory to like help me with the transition or I had um or I was in like or I know the crazy things you think on psychedelics, man, but um it was like either that or I was like a conscious copy of myself >> [laughter] >> in some kind of program or something. And I'm like, it's crazy whenever you whenever you have those thoughts on something like I don't want to scare people out of these experiences, but giving you this by telling you about this, but it just is what it is, right? This is like one out of 52, by the way. But uh so anyway, so once my once I think that, it's like I'm fully off into that. I'm like, "Okay, dude, I'm dead or I'm a I'm a I'm I'm a copy of myself or something, you know, whatever." And like I I get up and I check outside. I'm like, "Is outside still outside?" I look outside, everything's fine. I'm like I look all right. So, I go back in um so, I decide like I have to make sure my, you know, my family's in there. I got to make sure that everything's okay. I go inside, my family's inside, my wife's in bed, everything's fine. I go to sleep, finally wake up, everything's cool. But, it it it scared it like scared the hell out of me. They call it a hyper slap, I think is is like the terminology in the in the community. But, yeah, dude, it was a it was it was a significant hyper slap. >> What's happening, guys? Really quickly, I am proud to say this episode today is brought to you by me. Me, myself, and I. That's it. I spend a lot of time putting these together for you guys. I love to do it. It's been so fun. It's It's blessed me in all kinds of ways, but I I do kindly want to ask, if you've gotten anything out of this episode so far, please like, comment, or subscribe. It means more than you know. It's the free thing, and it helps me a ton. All right, guys, back to the episode. >> Yeah, my my second one I mean, I I feel like I know why it was rough. I was just in a weird state in my life. I was out at the the bars at that time. I was in college. I was also like taking a lot of Adderall during that period. So, I was on like a lot of uppers, and then I would try and take downers to like balance it out, I guess, cuz I couldn't sleep at night. And so, like towards the So, I've been taking Adderall, and then that when you take it consistently at high doses, it definitely bums you out. I mean, it leaves like this really gnarly like emotional hangover kind of. And whenever I start feeling that, I hate it. And so, we went out to the bar, so I started drinking. you know, like it's like some other drugs that I won't name, but like when you when you're on that, you could drink a lot more than you normally can. And so, I drank a lot. I was take I had I had a couple pills. I forget I remember I had a baggie of like multiple like I had painkillers, I had Xanax. It's just like not a time I'm super proud of, but um that's just kind of where I was. And someone at the bar that I'd met actually worked with him. He was the first person I ever took DMT with and I it was like one of those things where we're like you're you're bar hopping, right? And like you don't really know how you're getting to the next bar. Like all of a sudden I'm at this other bar and then um I saw him and we started talking about he's like, "I have some DMT." And he lived on that street like we could walk there. Right. And uh he's like, "Let's You want to You want to hit it again?" And I was like, "Let's do it." And so I don't really know what time it was. I know it was late and it was like me, my best friend, him, and these two girls went back with us. again, I I did not respect it. I rushed into it cuz again, the first time I did it it was a really good experience. It was scary. >> Yeah, yeah, yeah. I mean the whole room like the first one was like it freaked me out and it got to the point where I almost couldn't handle it and then it was it it it became normal the whole like when I looked at the room it would like went and the whole thing like geometric shapes I'd seen I saw those little elf gnome beings that I you know, that they're like little jesters. They were like laughing at me. But that was the first experience, but I got through that and it was really positive. I felt overwhelming love. I remember I spoke to my friend who was there and he he said things that he told me after the fact that he did not say to me, right? He's like, "I didn't talk at all." But he definitely talked to me during that trip. Um and so yeah, I came in kind of cocky like, "All right, that was a good experience. Let's run it." And I did it. And pretty quickly, man, it it became bad. This time though like the scenery was different. I was over I was on his balcony overlooking like kind of a dark alleyway and the way the lights were, you know, it had like a street light. It just freaked me out and I I I remember saying it like, "I don't like this." like pretty quickly. I was like, "I don't like this." And my buddy looked at me, my best friend, and he said, "Are you okay?" And every time every time he said okay, he like his voice became very demonic. He was like, "Are you okay?" Like really gnarly. And I was like, "Dude, stop asking me that." And he kept asking me and they like he kept me like, "Are you okay? Are you okay?" And I and I freaked out and I yelled at the top of my lungs, "Stop asking me that." Cuz it was freaking me out. It was like going in and out. >> That's like the worst thing anybody can ask you on those with those experiences. That's the worst. And I and I looked over at those two girls and those poor poor girls like left after that cuz they like they were like, "Whoa, this guy's losing his mind." But like literally I just wanted people to stop asking me if I'm okay. And um kind of shook out of it. I don't remember like much. Again, I was pretty pretty out of it, but Yeah. I also got a tattoo that night, so shortly after, but >> [gasps] >> Anyways, it was not great, so >> I got you. Yeah, it's like once you have that initial thought of oh, the things are going kind of weird or things are bad or this isn't going how I was expecting it to or wanting it to this time, it's it's funny how quickly it can kind of you know, run away on you. Um Yeah. It reminds me I've had that feeling similar to with mushrooms. so mushrooms also I've had beautiful experiences, but almost every time I do it, there's a period where it's like it's hard to explain if you've never done it, but it's like there's a period where mushrooms kind of sneak up on you a little bit. I don't know if you've taken mushrooms since. >> Twice, yeah. Once when I was 19 and then once about 3 years ago. So DMT slaps you in the face, right? It's like pretty instant. Mushrooms is like a weird thing cuz it kind of creeps up on you. Like all of a sudden like, "Hmm, something feels off." And it like it's kind of a slow roll. And there's always a period in that where it's like when I'm separating from like what's real, like reality, and kind of going into this place. Like you said, this other part of my brain is turning on and it's it's like a very It can be uncomfortable a little bit if you fight it. And I my brain always fights it in the beginning. it it made me respect, you know, like when people talk about, "Oh, like like mentally that person broke." Like I never understood what that means, but in those situations, it's the first time I've ever felt like, "Oh, like close to like something snapping in my mind." Like I I I remember being like, "Oh, that's what they're talking about." Cuz it's like you can't control it. And you're on the verge of like it feels like going crazy kind of like I You don't know It's hard to explain, but you're like >> Totally. I know exactly what you >> feel good. Mentally, this is a very off feeling. So, it happens a lot with mushrooms for me, but then when you push through it, that's when the It's not even a pushing. It's almost like a letting go. You have to just kind of like let the let You can't fight it. That's like the >> Dude, that is so It's the most like It's the most cliche thing that I that you read and you see whenever you're whenever you're like again, trying to prepare for one of these experiences or you're seeing uh other people talk about these experiences, you know, online or whatever when you're doing your research, but um it is the most important piece of advice that anybody can possibly give you or that you have to actually take seriously. You have to let go. Like you cannot try to fight it. You can't resist it. You just have to like remember I I chose to I'm choosing to do this. Like I'm you know, I did this thing. I took this thing and that this is the experience I was looking for. So, there's no point in, you know, in holding on to it cuz that is where it That's Every time anybody has a bad time, that's always the culprit. It's always like resistance or trying to steer it in the direction you want to take it in. It's like, that's not the point with this stuff, you know? The The point is not "Oh, I want to do this thing so I can do better at my job or or, you know, be a better at this or be a better that or have better relationships." It's like, that's not how it works. It's going to tell you what what you need to fix or it's going to help It's going to fix the thing that you need, not the thing that you you want it to or you're trying to guide it to. It's just Yeah, it's just not how it works. That's one thing Yeah, you you you open a door, right? And you go into a house you can't leave. And so, I think a lot of us when you start freaking out, you're trying to like find the window and you're That's That's what gets you in trouble. It's a It's a It's a house you can't leave, a party you can't leave. It's You open the door, you're you're there now. And there is nothing that's going to get you out of it. You have to let go. Yeah. Sit on the couch, dude, cuz it's going to be a ride. Yeah. Yeah. So, okay, so you're you went from nothing to to something, I'll tell you that. You went You went off the deep end there, which is uh that's very brave of you, number one. But, you said Now you There's a repeatable experience, which is interesting. Yeah. Yeah, so all right. So, this is the uh So, I don't know if you got if you've heard of this uh Danny Goller guy or this um It's This guy He The laser guy, right? He found out that if you like um at a certain at a certain dosage level of of DMT, if you shine a laser on a wall, you kind of see things. You or you see this very specific thing and and seven or eight out of 10 people who like who do it, which I think there's in the thousands of of people that have like done it now, um but everybody has this exact same experience. They see the exact same thing, which is for um um for psychedelics, that's really, you know, that's that's something. Um shared experiences are uh there's something going on very strange there, you know, cuz cuz the the typical belief or that, you know, I guess what everybody has always kind of um thought is that you uh take the substance and your brain, your consciousness in your brain is is creating something is independent, right? Novel to you, like it's coming from you. >> so obviously there's there's there's a lot of like archetypal things with with like lots of different psychedelics, mushrooms, um DMT, you know, there's all these things that lots of people kind of say they see often, you know, like like you said, like the little like the little jesters and things. >> Mhm. Right? Yeah, that's like very common. >> That's And that's not even the right term. I think you know what I'm talking about. They're not jesters in that they're like geometrical beings, kind of like they look I don't know. And even then you can't the Yeah, I don't know how to explain them. They're like uh I just remember distinctly being like, okay, I saw shapes I'd never seen before, and then it they were like they were alive, they felt like. They didn't feel like like shapes. They were like uh and they and they always felt playful to me. Yeah, and they were like kind of like like interested that I could see them almost is what it felt like. And I'm like, what are they? >> Yeah, it's it's like they want to show you things. They want to impress you or or like um yeah, it's very strange, right? So there's like these little there's definitely I'm just saying that to say there's definitely like things that many people say that they experience on DMT, right? But um it's not the same as like uh, you line up a line of 10 people, everybody does DMT, they walk into a another room and look into to a a a laser shine on the wall and they see the exact same thing in this laser, right? Um, so that is interesting. Sure, it's that's very interesting. Um, and it's interesting to me, but uh, what's very So, so I So, basically I got to the point where after that that first really kind of scary experience that I had, I was like, okay, man, maybe I'm maybe maybe breakthrough doses every single time isn't like necessary. I'd heard I'd seen other people talk about like sub-breakthrough doses are very interesting. It's a different thing, um, you know, there's something to be brought back and and kind of learned and at every level, right? Um, after that after that scary experience it I I was like, I'm just going to kind of dial it back a little bit and start doing lower lower doses and just, you know, kind of see what that's about and I did. And um, I'd say for probably four or five months, um, I'd do that and have very similar experiences every time, but I was always doing closed eye um, trips. Like every time I would I would do DMT, I would I would um, I'd go straight to closing my eyes and kind of going out. And that's um, usually when you have when you do a close a closed eye session with DMT, it's more external. Um, it's like you kind of come out of yourself, you come out of your body and experience something somewhere else. And um, when you have an when you leave your eyes open, it's more a it's more like a Let's see. What's the best way to It's an It kind of alters your current surroundings in certain ways, right? It's It's more of like a visual um trip in the space that you're in. It's It's more insular, right? So I'd always done open-eyed sessions every single time. Or closed, I'm sorry. So randomly one time I did like a small dose. I think it was maybe 10 to 15 mg I ended up leaving my eyes open for whatever reason. I can't even remember why. I think I think maybe so I don't know if you can like there's a monitor right here, like a big screen right here in front of me. So usually I'm actually like sitting here at my desk and I've got some kind of visuals or something going on on this on the screen and maybe like some low chanting or whatever, just something kind of low and droning. for whatever reason this time I I took the hits and then the visuals on the on the that were going on the screen kind of started looking really strange and it it just whatever it was just kind of triggered me to keep my eyes open. like and so I'm sitting there and I've got my eyes open and all of a sudden it was real dude So all of a sudden I started to see this tran semi-transparent almost like a translucent uh kind of the only way I I des- I can describe it as like a framework kind of just start to become barely but become visible in front of me. Like in this space right over here. Like it just kind of became uh like this translucent It almost kind of looked like, uh, like the inner, uh, inner workings of like an engine or something. It's the It was like mechanisms, right? Just kind of moving in sync with one another. Um, and I remember specifically what kind of triggered me seeing them was like there were these two almost pine cone shaped looking, uh, objects spinning slowly across my, um, my field of view kind of up out like about right up about here. Kind of like slowly spinning side by side and just moving across my field of view. And I could kind of see like other stuff moving slowly, but the the weird thing about this is like when it you can you can see everything it usually fills your field of view and you can kind of see that there is something occupying all of that space, like individual things occupying the entire space, but you can only really make out in high detail what you focus on. you can only focus in like, you know, maybe I don't know, like a cubic foot, right? So like if you see something and you focus on that thing, you can easily focus right in, see it, make out its complete shape. You see everything else kind of moving, but it's not clear. It's not like you're standing back looking at a car and you can see the the whole car, the shape of the car and everything. It's like it's like you can only clearly see a small space, but you can you know that there's stuff filling that area around it. So, so anyway, so this first time I see these two kind of things just kind of like turning going across my field of view and I'm like, that's that's there. Like it was very I remember being like this is clearly and at this point by the way I've like I said I'm like maybe 150 um trips in. I've I've I'm experienced at this point. I'm not you know I don't call myself a psychonaut. I'm not I've never done the only the only drugs I've ever done are I've had two trips on mushrooms one very when I was like I said earlier 19 and then one like three or four years ago DMT. Like I've never I've never done LSD or acid or any of the other things. Like I've never had that like I've want to dive into all this stuff. I'm a very like um I'm not a psychedelics guy. I'm not like I don't like the Grateful Dead. I'm not into that like it I'm just not one of those people right that are I'm not what you would think of I guess is like somebody who who is into all that stuff right? I'm a project manager by trade. Like I'm very a left brain type A. Yeah, I got you. Uh yeah yeah so this was a this but but this felt very real like very obviously real to me. I remember so I come out of it it wears off and I'm like it's all I can think about for the rest of that evening it's all I can think like I I go to sleep I'll wake up and I'm like dude that felt too real. Like I could see this like it was right there. So the next evening load up a low dose and it's like I I just know that when I when I take when I do this this low dose and I sit here with my eyes open I'm going to see this again and I I load up a low dose I I take that dose as about at about 10 mg 12 mg slowly after about the first hit I start to see this kind of like glistening is the only way I know how to how to describe it. It's like I start seeing this this like glistening of almost like the edges of things. And then about you know second hit as I finish the dose it becomes much more clear. It's always the same exact um And dude, I'm like a hundred times this has happened. And it's every single time now. Um I see uh It's It's all usually different except for one element of it, but it's like what actually shows up is is usually um It's never like the exact replicable same thing, but it's always this some type of framework that is semi-translucent. It almost looks like um You know the the Predator movies? You remember the Predator movies, right? So, you know like he can cloak himself. He's There's this thing where in those movies like he pushes a button on his little control thing and he goes like >> of see it, but it's you can't. Yes. Exactly. It's If you got closer to him though, you'd be able to make out the shapes and the outline of him, but but yeah, it's exactly like that. Like it it it um It shows up semi-transparent, but it's it's right there and it's every single time. Um And so, I'm like after after this happens maybe 10 times, I'm like, "Dude, I got to tell somebody. This is really weird." So, I start looking into like is there anybody that's having similar experiences? You know, like um listening to people that are prominent in the DMT space talk about their experiences. And um and I'm watching a a interview that um Danny Goler, the laser guy, was doing very recent I think it was literally he had done it like two days before I started looking into like what's going on here. Like he had done a interview like two days before. they and the the interviewer asked him specifically he said like, "Okay, so explain what a DMT experience is like for you. Like if you took if you took some right now, what would you see?" And he said um he said, "First the first thing that would happen is I would see this kind of translucent uh he was like, I don't know if it's beings or like machines or something kind of come into the room." And I was like, "What? Like that no way like that's crazy. Impossible, right?" So I I was I reached out to uh I reach I start I I sent him an email. He's a busy guy. I was on on Reddit looking at the DMT experience like his laser experiment stuff or or like some other thing. And I sent a message cuz somebody said they were like on his team. I shot him a message and it ended up being this guy. Um he goes his he goes by Eric online um David Carters is name he's he's uh Danny Gold's partner at um at uh Code of Reality which is the basically the the uh the laser experiment like the official laser experiment um effort. Uh it's they it's code of reality um code of reality.com for anybody that's like interested in this stuff and wants to go check it out um or is having similar experiences, please like please go check that out and leave your experiences there but um but anyway, so I sent him a message and uh he ends up messaging me back a uh, a few days later and he basically [clears throat] says, "Like, dude, I'm sorry it took me a couple days to get back to you, but he was like, you wouldn't believe the you know, the just the the torrent of weird shit that they get that he gets sent all the time um, with people you know, thinking they telling them they've found that the the the code of the universe or they figured out reality and or this or that, but uh, he was like um, he was like, one thing that I think it he was like, one thing that kind of stands out and and and is always like a makes a difference is that um, you were you weren't saying you had some answers, you were basically just asking questions, like I'm having this experience and I have no idea what's going on. Um, but I just wanted to you know, discuss it, see if anybody else is having the same experience, so um, we ended up linking up and having a couple a couple really really interesting conversations, but um, it turns out that there are several people that are that have this exact same experience where they are um, they do a they do a low dose and and they they leave their eyes open and then there's this framework or sometimes it looks biological, sometimes it looks mechanical, but something 100% of the time shows up in their field of view and is and is so and is almost interactive um, uh, it seems it seems to be a graduated experience. It's it's usually people who have had lots of experiences over a period of it's not something that like anybody sees early on or the first few times or even the first, you know, what, 50 times, but at a certain point, it's almost like what it seems like, and again, this is it's all speculative at this point. Um, unfortunately, uh but that's what they're that's what luckily they're doing and lots and there's some other like small startups that are that are also getting into actually studying this stuff. Um, trying to figure out what is going on, what's happening, um why it's happening, and how why and how it's so repeatable. but uh but there are So, yes, it's like a graduate experience where there are people having this exact same there is something there is something I don't know and I've had, you know, obviously I've thought a lot about it trying to understand what's going on. They've thought a lot about trying to understand what's going on. I don't know if it's I don't know if it's like pulling some veil back and allowing you to see something that's already there or if it's putting out a signal uh and like calling something to you that you're you know, it's I don't know. I don't know. That we don't know yet, but there the the the bottom line though is that there is something happening repeatably reliably with many people that and and dude, when I say that there's something there, I mean like when it becomes visible, I've tried so many times tested it so many times I put, you know, my direct scrutiny. I put my direct, you know, I'm looking directly at it, trying to um force it to like cuz you know with with a lot of psychedelic experiences, they're very like chaotic and you can kind of impose your will and it or you you lucid you've had a lucid dream, right? So like, you know, you can like look at at something and cause it things aren't right always. It's like you can things kind of shift and morph. >> Yeah, it's like malleable, right? There's it's like you can look at something and put your direct attention on it and like the shape will hold for a moment, but it'll kind of go wonky, you know? That's the best way I can describe it. With this, it's not, dude. It's like remote. I'm looking at the remote. It's right there. The fucking remote is right there, dude. It's not moving. It's not It's I can't I can't make it distort. It's not distorting. It's right there. It's the same experience. So So So So So yeah, all I can I don't know what it is, how it's happening, but all I want I guess all I want your audience or anybody else who's interested in this stuff to understand is that it is like I don't know what's happening. These people that are studying this stuff don't know what's happening. But it is happening. It is real. It's actually happening. There is something going on when your when your when your consciousness interacts with this molecule. It is doing something. >> What Okay, so beyond obviously a lot of people are seeing it. People are trying to do tests with it. Like you said, it's it's real as real can be multiple times. What What are you What do you think it means beyond just like what you think it is? What do you think it means on a broader sense? Like what are your theories on it? >> So again, so much in this is speculation, almost all of it at this point. Um but it almost feels like and and David Carter said this to me and that was the first time that I that I had thought about it that way, he nailed it when he said that he gets a very strong sense and other people around him get a very strong sense that this is a a school. Like this is a learning experience. It's wanting It's It's like a It's trying to teach or show us something. I don't And what is you know, it's very early, so we don't I don't don't know what, but it does feel like it's in almost inviting you to interact with it. And and and so here's the the last kind of crazy part of this is so for for a while it was always these different things. It was something would always appear and become this translucent form would always appear and kind of be in motion there in my field of view, but it was like I said, it was almost always something different or it had a you know, a kind of a different tone or or a different appearance, but about I don't know, maybe a month or two ago, it was right before I I sent you the the first email, so it's maybe been a couple of months. Um dude, I know this sounds crazy and I promise I am just a regular a regular dude. Um but this uh basically it looked like to me I called it an interface when I was describing it. Um I've heard So, since I described it and told somebody and told uh David about it. Um he was like instantly like, "Oh, that's the console. That's the console. You're You're You're You're experiencing the console." basically what it what it is is after after a certain period of time with it's like, "Okay, I'm able to see these things now. They're becoming visible. I've had, you know, whatever graduation I had to get to to start seeing this stuff." Um I've had a certain period of time with that and then so suddenly So I did it again I Like I said, about 2 months ago one of my experiences I I'd take the hit and it looks like a literal like console basically. Um raises up in my field of view. Again, this is it's all translucent though. It's like it's all semi-translucent. Nothing's ever is solid like you know, filled-in textures and everything. It's It's always like this transparent form I see this kind of half-spherical uh I don't want to use the same words that I've heard other people use because I don't want it to sound like So anyway, I'm sorry. So So it's like this half-spherical kind of thing kind of raises up and uh a and it almost it looks like a screen go like folds out like folds up and then out and then there's a another kind of off to the right of it a slowly articulating kind of spinning uh not coat rack but kind of like a coat rack like a like a just like a a ah it's strange, dude. It's hard to It's It's hard to describe a lot of this stuff because there's not really you know I got it. They're novel experiences. I got it. There's there's I mean some of the smartest people in the world are convinced that we are in some kind of simulation, right? And when you start I think the next step maybe and and this is just take this for what it's worth at all. I mean to grain of salt, big grain of salt. You know, when you there's something to like taking something and it and I think they're both equally valid. There's no to me again, it's about the um the conviction level. So like when I would take substances of any kind no doubt like I think it's no different than like you take you know, vitamin D or something like you uh there's obvious that you could take things and your body reacts to it and it has you know, benefits and all these things. I think psychedelics are are part of that. They're they're like they help you escape from the the the normal day-to-day that your brain is locked into, right? And they remind you again that like whoa you know, maybe maybe a little more on the like why we're here, but they force you to think about things. There's a lot of gratitude that comes from them. Um they have their own their own thing. When you and you should. So Monroe just released a new thing about 30 days ago. I'm going to I'm going to do it um it's their I think they're calling it the the the the gateway voyage, but it's their it's their program where if you went to the Monroe Institute and you and you took their program, they put it online and they have something called uh Monroe's sound science. It's like a newer it's a more advanced version of their binaural beats, but my point is you should get into that next because what what that stuff does and I'll never forget this cuz again, you're talking to the guy who's very similar to you in that maybe I'm I'm not so like type A, but like I'm very like didn't take anything my whole life. The very first thing I did take was not beer, was not like a cigarette. like the very first thing I took was salvia and I will tell you that's the what you're describing when you said you didn't know who you are, that knocked me I mean that's pretty extreme for your first thing and it knocked me out and I remember falling below my body and I remember looking at my hands and being who am I? I didn't know who I was and it really upset me. Um so in a way that was like my first like out of body. I didn't know that's what it was at the time. But when you have a a true OBE and I will say this is I had a a semi one the other night so the first time in 2 years where it happened to me again. I was kind of I was laying there with my wife and we were we were watching a show and I was kind of going in and out of it and you know, I was in that weird like state where I'm like sleepy but then I would wake up and I'd finish the show. So we ended up turning it off and I was kind of like I'd just woken up so I stayed awake for a little bit but then I laid down and as I started to like fall asleep I felt myself in a weird state where like I was my body was starting to fall asleep cuz I would feel myself get really heavy and I and I know this right cuz I've done this now before I'm like oh here's the feeling again and then sure enough I got the the vibration feeling and I'm going to you haven't experienced that right or have you? So yeah, I did. I've had I've had one OBE and it was it's only been like 3 months ago and it completely freaked me out like scared the shit out of me. Dude. So to me that is even more gnarly because DMT it blasts you into this world and it's fascinating but the out of body one the vibration is so intense and then you know you're not taking anything so it's like very strange. It's like what is happening? And I think you'd really enjoy exploring that world because it's also one that you can achieve without taking anything and it's it also has layers of of weirdness to it right where you start where you start talking to different beings and and you go further and further and further. That's uh I I see you really enjoying that. But one thing I else I wanted to say is I I had this interview with this girl and she she kind of brought it up just like anything, right? You talk to people and they say it in a way you haven't heard before. And she was saying how like you know, in her meditations one time she was taken to this place where it was nothing. It was just complete blackness. It was and there's many cultures that have talked about that space. As a lot of OBEers talk about that space. Like there's this realm and then there's like this other place where you go and it's it's nothing. And it's just and they say that's your truest form. Like it's almost like when when you when you're Yeah, it's it's not black, but it's not it's just nothingness and true nothingness. And that's where you often feel like super at peace. Um you're just like, "Wow, you don't want to leave it cuz you are everything and everything is you" kind of thing. And she was describing it like it's almost like our world is projected onto us. And she it was kind of like, "Okay, imagine you're in a pool." And that's the black space. We're all in it right now. And at the same time we're all connected cuz we're all in that we're in that water. So we're all one in that way. But it's almost like we have this bubble around us and it's projecting at all times. And when even when you go in and out of body or something, you're still in that bubble. You're just at a different like layer of it kind of. And she was saying like, "But when you get beyond the bubble, you're in the nothingness." And it's like it's interesting to think about like the thing you're talking about, the console. Like it's almost like what if that is some advanced like thing that you're you're almost seeing the actual technology of it that's putting this all around us. And I'm telling you But beyond that is it just makes me think about that. I'm like, "Whoa, what if that's what's happening?" I would be lying if I had didn't if I said that I have not thought something similar. Like it does almost So, that's another thing about um DMT specifically um that is very different as far as what I've heard from most of the other psychedelics. Um I only have experience with with mushrooms aside from that. Mushrooms is very like there's this very like nature earth based It's gentle. >> vibe with mushrooms. Right? So. >> Yes. DMT specifically is very um technological which is is very different and very it's very strange and novel unique for a a DMT or for a psychedelics experience experience because usually it is more like a spiritual um kind of uh oneness with the universe and nature kind of thing. Well, specific You can get that in some ways in certain ways out of DMT, but DMT is much more described as feeling very technological um and kind of uh not sterile, but technological. Yeah, and and and interactive with almost things that feel scientific and and from uh from somewhere else. Like you know, many of the the entity uh interactions that people describe feel very um scientific. Like there's you know, there's like a common um experience that a lot of people have and have had um maybe three or four times where they feel like they wake up or they they they find themselves on like an examining table um in like a highly technological almost like future ER or something, right? Like a very hot um hyper technological uh uh examining room with like um usually some type of like mantis uh uh or or something like some type some type of scientists or doctors over them doing some kind of examination, right? So, it it does kind of almost feel like I've definitely considered that hey, is this like is this console, is this you know, are these headsets in this console, is this kind of is this the game or this you know, the reality is what we're experiencing it right now is is it some type of technology? Is it you know, the the the simulation thing. I hate you know, hate you hate to use that, but you can only use what you can only present what you're experiencing as you're experiencing it and if it lines up with some passe, you know, theory of reality that it it is what it is. You can't dismiss it because it's been discussed so much recently or something like that. It does feel Yeah, man. I mean, I of course it when you're when you're presented with some type of control interface and it's every single time after a certain number of graduated experiences, other people with similar high high count experiences as as you start to experience the exact same thing in the exact same ways without talking to one another about it. Like, of course you it can start to feel like okay, is this am I being presented am I seeing am I seeing the controls here for some reason? Am I you know, have I just you know, soaked my brain with enough of this you know, with enough of this molecule that it's able to under these certain conditions experience something that is there just right beyond view or right beyond um, our regular perception. And again, dude, I I know, trust me. Like I get I get how I get how crazy all of this sounds to you. 99% of people. Like I I totally understand. Two years ago, I would have been one of those people that are like, "This is crazy. This guy is hallucinating. This is your brain on drugs." You know, and just dismiss it. But, all I can tell you is I know that >> You're not You're on You're on You're on a podcast where no my whole audience doesn't think it's weird, dude. So, you're you're not >> Well, good. You're [laughter] not You're not going to have a bunch of people saying like, "This guy is tripping." Like we all we all have had out-of-bodies. I mean, dude, my own wife is like she knows that I've I, you know, I've had them, but like they're you know, she's just kind of like, "All right." She doesn't quite understand, and that's fine. I don't need her to to like be as into it as me, but I'm like in my head I'm like, "No, this isn't like just not I'm not tripping. This is >> It's real. >> Really? Yeah, it's like you don't understand how crazy like I know, dude, trust me. My like my wife is exactly like I was two years ago. It's like all of a sudden I'm a different person. She's like still like I tried to tell her I had I had an OBE recently and it completely blew my mind, freaked me out. The first thing I did was call her and try to tell her about it, and she's just like, "Okay, dude. Like Oh, boy. >> You know what I'm saying? I'm just like >> So, dude, I I do get it, man. But but >> So, what what happened in your OBE? So, do you remember? It was it Is it Do you have a memory of it or So, what happened? Okay, so it was it wasn't like I wish it was more interesting. I wish I went to some crazy liminal space, but I haven't made it that far yet. But, um, so I had I was actually actively purs- was like wanting to learn how to have an OBE um because you start you start down this road with like you know like I said I've always been interested in consciousness at a very deep level like I was obsessed with I remember when the D-Wave computer came out um that was like the first quantum computer it's probably been a decade or more ago this guy I think his name's David Rose gave a talk he was the the guy who created this first quantum computer I remember showing my wife this this video of him doing this talk like 10 or 12 years ago something like that and she was just like you're interested in this stuff like so I've always been heavily interested in the con- in consciousness but it wasn't until having these DMT experiences where I realized like oh you can interact with this this stuff you can there is a way to actually have some tangible experiences you can either learn from or try to confirm some things or just kind of play with it a little bit you know and um so I had because of the DMT experiences being so you know me arriving at okay this is definitely happening there's definitely something going on here I started looking into other things like I like um lucid dreaming and and OBEs obviously just kind of the natural uh kind of route you can go down and so I'd I'd got really interested in OBEs and I was trying to learn how to trigger one and I was doing a lot of these things that you do um when you're trying to learn how to how to how to make these things happen for like I was trying for like two or three months and I had reached the vibrational stage maybe twice where it I'd made it to the point of having very very strong like pulsing head it would like start at my head and kind of wash down my body to my feet and it would felt like it was like pulsing up and down my body really, really strong vibrations to the point of almost feeling like I was going to like explode. Like like feel like I was just going to like pop. Right? So, but I never It's like I would get to that point and think, "Okay, this is Surely this is the point where I'm supposed to try to like sit up or roll over or something, right?" And I would do it and I would just sit up, you know? Or I would just like roll over and it I wasn't I wouldn't make it out of body. I wouldn't actually get out of body. And I I was getting really um Dude, I was getting really kind of I'm not going to say frustrated, a little bit frustrated, but kind of like this is not going to happen for me. Like I I'm just not able to do this. I keep getting to this certain point and it just I can't I can't seal the deal, right? of course, how it always happens with stuff like this, totally unintentionally, one day I was um It's like I had the I think I had the day off work and uh I got up to get my son ready for school at like [clears throat] uh 6:00 in the morning. Um get him ready to send him on his way. And I went back to bed for to sleep for a few hours. And um kind of like how that's a good way to trigger lucid dream. Um is to like reach REM sleep basically like 6 hours of sleep, get up for like 30 minutes, and go back to uh go back to sleep. It can help you trigger lucid dreams, right? Well, something something about this specific time, I wasn't intent That's not the intention. I just said that so happened to get up and be up for like 30 minutes and go back to bed. And my wife had gotten up and left for work, so I'm home by myself with our two little dogs. it's just me and the dogs and I'm in bed by myself. And I'm kind of hovering in that liminal space that we're or that in between space where you're kind of in and out of sleep, right? And I start having that very strong feeling. It's almost It's like Again, I wasn't trying. I just unintentionally, I guess maybe just the conditions were just perfect for it to happen. But I'm laying there on my back in bed and I start to feel the vibrational state coming on. And I'm fully I'm not uh I'm definitely not asleep. Like you know if you you've had out of bodies You're conscious when you're asleep. You're thinking your thoughts. You're like, "Whoa, what's happening?" Yeah. Exactly. Yeah, it's it's that is. One of those things you can only understand if you've been there. So many people are just dismiss it. So it's it's like, "Oh, you probably fell asleep or something." It's like, "Dude, you just don't know unless you know, right?" So But I'm laying there. I'm like, I feel the vibrations start happening. I'm like, "Oh, shit. Like, okay. All right. This is happening." It's coming on naturally. It's It's just happening. I start I just start letting it happen and really trying to focus on on just like letting go and just kind of being there in myself and and and just waiting for that vibrational state to reach the right point to hopefully this time like do it at the right point where I get out of body and that I reach this point I kind of start hearing this kind of hum and the vibrations are very very strong I I feel it kind of reach reach my head I just went for it and I sat up. And I sat up and I wasn't completely sure whether I was in or out of my body, but I I sat up and I turned sideways on the bed and put my feet on the floor. And I And I looked over and I like there I am on the pillow with my not a not like a flattering like vision of myself. I'm like laying there on the pillow with like my mouth open, like drooling on the pillow, not looking attractive at all. Like you know, it's not how you would Yeah. >> If you were you know, when you when you think of yourself, you try to think of yourself in the you reflect yourself in your best possible you know, state. Like I would have been if I was if I was just having this experience and like looking and and seeing myself laying there on the pillow like I'd have been laying there like perfect my hair's perfect, no drool coming out of my mouth, you know, like but I'm like almost like jarred like ah, dude, is that what I look like when I was when I'm asleep, you know, like ugh And I >> like so I'm like um I'm like I remember having that thought and then I got I got really really scared. Like I it it it kind of freaked me out and I'd read people say like it can be really scary cuz like it's a novel experience. It's totally new. The I'm having all the thoughts of like oh oh my god, like I'm out I'm out. What if I can't get back, you know, what if I can't go back in my body? Um but I kind of it's it is absolute terror, but I do like I get it under control to the point of like just holding it together and I'm like, okay, while I'm here, let's test this. Like I'll remember specifically thinking and I thought a thousand times before when I'm trying to have this these experiences, I'm like I have to figure out a way to to test if it's really happening. Like I need to find something I can like look at and then go and test and see if it's the same you know what I mean, something. So thank god I had that thought. Heck, I calmed myself down, got myself out of you know, composed and I um decided to how I'm going to test it is I'm going to go find our two little dogs. We have a little weenie dog and a um a little Chihuahua and they kind of hang out in the living room and I'm like um I'm going to go see where the dogs are at, see if I can find the dogs. And then when I go back in my body see if if they're you know, if they're how I found them like or see if that they're how I left them. Okay, so all right, so I get up, I walk into the living room and my little weenie dog is at the end of the couch under the under the two throw pillows on his back and literally all you can see of my little weenie dog is his like bottom half of his body with his little he's on his back with his little legs kind of sprawled out and he's like sleeping on his back covered by the pillows and my little Chihuahua is over in her little bed in like a little tiny little ball tucked into the corner of her bed. And I'm like, okay, all right. Mental note weenie dog on his back Chihuahua in the bed in a ball. Got it. Go back in the bedroom and I I do what I'd always you know, heard everybody say you just literally just lay back down in your body or go back in your body or just think I want to go back in my body. And I kind of did all of them in simultaneously. Like I laid back down where I was laying and I just kind of thought I want to be back in my body. And I'm back in my body. Like I I I I like open my eyes, wake up and I'm back in my body. I'm like, oh my god. Oh my god. Oh my god, that's crazy. I can't believe that just happened. Get up, walk in the living room. Weenie dog is on his back exactly how I just saw it like the dogs are exactly where they were when I got up and went and looked, right? It's I mean, my mind is completely blown. Can't believe this just happened. Call my wife. I'm like and I hadn't even told her that like I'm trying to have these out of body experiences or anything and I just like [laughter] I just dump all this on her like in like a just you would not believe what just happened. I just had an out of body experience. I've been trying to do this. I was vibrating. I popped out of my body. Freaked me out. I saw Duke and Zoe. They were exactly how I look like. And she's just like, "What are you talking about, dude?" But yeah, man, that was my out of body experience. It 100% happened. It was real. But yeah, dude, it's uh Dude, that that's that's impressive. Like for your first one to be able to walk around, that's impressive. Um I think you should look into the the Monroe one. I'm going to do it here soon. I just hear that a lot of good good positive uh People having results. >> reviews on it. I think you could you know, they got some cool stuff and I'm going to I'm going to give it a go. So, definitely you should try it, too. And on a side note, before we go, I got I got two wiener dogs, too, dude. So, They're so great, man. I love them so much. >> Yeah, nice nice nice. >> best. They're >> Weenie brothers, man. Dude, well well, thanks for coming on, man. All right, thanks for having me, man. >> it. Let's let's stay in touch. Stay in touch. >> All right, brother. All right, brother. Cheers. See you, man.